Preparing and Transforming...

My head isn't exactly clear at the moment but I haven't posted in so long...which is really not like me...so I wanted to take some time to update you (and myself) on thoughts and feelings about life as I know it right now.

I'm forewarning the this post might be lengthy...and wordy....and because of this, I'll give you an aid to help you skim better.

Topics:

1. Work
2. Life
3. Church
4. School
5. Diet


1. Work

So let's talk about how miserable I am at my job....I'm SO over it. When your boss puts you in a position to be taken advantage of and disrespects you, it has a tendency to bleed onto the rest of your staff. I am never able to actually do my job the way I want or need to in order to see any kind of progress or success. I can't wait to leave. Even though I'm leaving in four months, I'm keeping my options open for the possibility of a new job before I go. I am fortunate that I have members of the staff who do their job, but all in all, it's my boss who makes things so unbearable. I'm just pushing through and trying my best to keep "plugging along", as my dad would say. I try really hard to have a positive attitude, but sometimes it gets hard when you feel like a doormat.

2. Although work blows, life is actually coming along alright. I'm getting caught up on bills and finally moved into my new house for my last few months here in Indiana. I've still been spending lots of time with you-know-who and having a blast. If I think about the situation too much, I get frustrated, so I'm not thinking about it and just enjoying life as it comes to me! There is so much beauty in the world and fun to be had....and my faith is strong that all will work out as it should.


3. I was FINALLY released of the longest calling I've ever had of choir director, in addition to being released as the Family Home Evening Chair and have been called as a Ward Missionary. I'm am really, really excited about my calling. I get to go to gospel principles, which is my favorite class, and I am able to see all of the great things going on to bring people closer to the church and the Lord. I have a strong testimony that this Gospel can transform your life. It can make you strive and reach for things you never thought possible. Why settle for good or better when you can have the best?! So I've been really excited to be serving in this capacity. I'm really trying to make an effort to be a great missionary and I know that Satan is testing me by keeping me busier than normal....


4. Fourth months to go and I'll be out at school. There are so many thoughts and emotions involved in it that I'm not even sure I can put it into words. Indiana is my home and I will miss it. There are so many things and people here....and more than that, it's all I know. But I'm ready to explore and reach my potential. I know that BYUI will give me what I need to get to where I want to go. I have a very clear vision of my goals for the first time in my life, and it's a great feeling. It's just having the faith and patience to get there!!

5. My diet has been slowly but surely still coming along. The last three weeks have been really really stressful and I haven't been eating normally, or exercising as much as I would like, but I am still noticing little changes here and there. Again, I have a clear picture of my end goal and I would really like to get there by the end of the year. I know that it's attainable...I just have to keep working hard and really make it a priority.


........So that helped me, I don't know about you! lol.

Be happy. Be healthy.